If you are anything like me, you like to keep things just in case. You can easily go into your closet and find something you haven’t worn in 5 years with some great rationalization about why you’ll need that… fill in the blank. For some it’s coats, for some it’s shoes, for some it’s bridesmaids dresses (you know who you are!). For some it leaks into the garage with surfboards, bikes, or cars.
For me, it was my Pea Coat most recently. Now, I don’t mean to belittle my neuroticism. I’m a pack rat. I like to keep things just in case. As I began delving further into the laws of the universe, manifestation, and simply faith, I began questioning why I do this. Is it because I really see value in moving this jacket I haven’t worn in 5 years one more time, or is it REALLY because I am scared that if I get rid of it that a day will come when I need it and don’t want to regret letting it go?
Once I got honest about why I was keeping that grey wool pea coat I purchased the day after Christmas in 1995, I couldn’t very well hang onto it anymore. I had since moved to Southern California and it had literally been at least 4 years since I had worn that coat.
So, along with many many other such items I did what might have been the largest single drop to Goodwill ever just before moving into our new house. Well, ok maybe not ever, but at least from me. So I drive away feeling great about that someone who needs a pea coat that is getting it at such a great price. Ah, the sweat sensation of contribution.
Fast forward 18 months and I no longer work for the athletic apparel company where even in my international leadership meetings I go to work in stretchy pants. It was just how we rolled. Now in my current role as a coach I do still get to wear stretchy pants (and my bathrobe occasionally) while I do much of my work from home. And, there are days where I need to put on my big girls pants and head out.
So you know what is coming. It’s cold outside. I have on my nice ironed dress pants. My ironed shirt and now I need a coat. But my coat isn’t there. It’s gone. Long gone. And then it comes. That voice. That damn voice. “I told you so. I knew you shouldn’t have gotten rid of that coat. I knew you’d need it. Now you have to spend MORE money to just get another coat. That was stupid. You are stupid.”
Oh I hate that voice. Lately I’ve started viewing that voice with the face of the wicked witch. I won’t go down that rabbit hole today, though.
So that mean voice has made its point. I counter back with for the last 18 months someone has probably been getting use of that coat. And in the spirit of full disclosure, I never loved the coat. It was really a size too big (last one on sale rack) and the arms were just a touch short for my tall body. So, the torso was a bit boxy. Not exactly a coat I felt sexy in. May explain why I never wore it…
Ironically, a week later I’m driving home from a day of spending hours supporting my mom cleaning out her closet. It seems the pack rat doesn’t fall far from the tree. We donated clothes she hadn’t worn in a decade. We also found two absolutely award winning sweaters to give to friends for the season’s ugly Christmas sweater parties. I have no doubt they were winners!
I digress. So I stop at Costco because I need gas and a whiteboard. On my way to the white boards I see them… neatly folded rows of grey wool coats. They are only $49 so I think, well how nice could they be? I go in closer for a look. Oh, soft lining. Mine was kind of scratchy inside. I slide it on and the arms are long enough. Even long enough for me. It’s Costco so I look around seeing if there is someone who can give me an honest opinion about how it looks since there are mirrors nowhere and I realize I trust no one anyway. I take a picture with my phone, but that doesn’t help at all. I decide to just get it and I can always return it if I get it home and start laughing when I look in the mirror.
Well, let’s just say I’ve worn this jacket more in the last 10 days than I wore my other one in the last 10 years. It has detailing at the waist. It’s soft inside. It’s warm. Cozy and warm for our San Diego days where it doesn’t even hit 60 (yes, it happens!). I love my Michael Kors jacket!
So then the other voice chimes in. I picture her as Glinda the Good witch. “See, Laura, everything is always taken care of. We are here to guide you. It’s ok to relax, release, and be open to receiving all the gifts we have in store for you.”
The moral of the story- maybe it’s simply you should always shop at Costco. I think it’s actually a bit bigger. I think it’s a reminder that it is ok to release that which doesn’t serve us. If it is in the highest good, the universe will arrange it. And even if that seems to good to be true, at least your closet will be more organized. So now I get to look at what else I am holding onto that doesn’t serve me. Want to join me and see what happens?
And so it is!